I take things way too seriously even if they are jokes and everyone hates me for it.
it would help if i had someone to talk to who can help me head on with this. Ive tried so many times to build my self esteem but theres always a flaw and i mess up really bad. Please help me. It has me really depressed.

In spite of school and after school programs that try to instill self esteem by teaching kids to pat themselves on the back and repeat, "I am a good person," self esteem comes from achievements.

"Self-esteem is reliance on one’s power to think. It cannot be replaced by one’s power to deceive. The self-confidence of a scientist and the self-confidence of a con man are not interchangeable states, and do not come from the same psychological universe. The success of a man who deals with reality augments his self-confidence. The success of a con man augments his panic.

"The man of authentic self-confidence is the man who relies on the judgment of his own mind. Such a man is not malleable; he may be mistaken, he may be fooled in a given instance, but he is inflexible in regard to the absolutism of reality, i.e., in seeking and demanding truth . . .

"There is only one source of authentic self-confidence: reason." Ayn Rand

"The name Nathaniel Branden has become synonymous with "the psychology of self-esteem," a field he began pioneering over thirty years ago." [from Dr. Brandon's site.]

He and Ayn Rand worked together on "self esteem" in the late 1950s and early 1960s, before mainstream psychology was interested in it.

"The desire for self-esteem without integrity is like the desire for wealth without effort-a longing for the unearned."
Nathaniel Branden http://www.nathanielbranden.com/catalog/splash.php